Ok hello everybody, now i would
like to tell about my story, before we start i would to say sorry for my bad
english,, still learning :p. Ok let we get start. I want to tell this because
many of my friend ask me, why i am so often go to campus even there are no
subject on that day, so i tell them to get daily money from my parent and get
wifi connection to download some film there. Actually that’s not my reason,
that’s just an excuse from me because i don’t want them to know what i actually
do, but now i would tell the truth. When you ask, “why you would tell it?,why
now?. why not earlier?”, it’s because i just want to express my feeling but i
don’t have a courage to tell anybody even my best friend, and why now? Because i
think it’s the time to tell it before we graduate from college.
Ok back to the topic, there are 2
reason why i often come to campus lately. The first reason is, i just feel not
so comfort at home lately. There’s too many family problem here, i can’t tell
what’s the problem is because it’s too private. FYI i’m so close with my mother
and brother, so when there’s a problem i feel what they feel too, i just can’t
do nothing so i run away and try don’t want to know the problem. Where i run
away? Of course my campus. “YOU COWARD”,
yeah i’m just a coward child that too afraid to face the truth, even i already
22 years old this year but i don’t know my feeling still not so strong like the
other. I easily cry if there a moment that i could’t accept, yes and i’m a crybaby
too, but i am good to cover my expression to always smilling to the other even
i’m not feeling well. So my friend just know i’m a boy that like to smile, and
i like to make them happy.
The second reason is,,, ohh i am too
shy to tell this, but i have to tell because i can’t hold it anymore. Ok the
second reason is, i think i fall in love with someone at my campus. Yes you right
i always go to campus often because i want to see her more often. FYI i just
have 2 days a week to get my subject at college, so the remaining day i just go
to campus and hope i could see her. I don’t know i’m happy just to know she is
fine. “Why don’t you express your feeling to her?” as you know i’m a coward so
i don’t have a courage to do that, and i don’t have any experience with girl. “Whaaaat,
you already 22nd and don’t have experience with girl?!!” yeah,, yeah,, yeah,, i know that, it’s a long
story if i want to tell the reason why i don’t have experience with girl, but i
think i will tell it someday. Back to the topic, i have this feeling to this
girl when it reach 3rd grade at college. I can’t tell her name for now, if you
ask “Do you have a contact of her?” yes i have. I could just chat her if i want
to more close to her but once more i don’t have a courage, i’m just happy to
see her smile, to see her laugh, to see her fine, to know that she is alright.
So what i do now is to pray for her healthy, happiness, and her success in her
study. Ok i think that’s enough for today, maybe when the time come, i would
tell who she is. Thanks :).
PS : If any my friend read this
please don’t share it to anyone, just ask me first,, Thanks.
